Lesson of the night

Live, feel, believe

Slowing down even more

So, just some proof that slowing down really helps.  In a couple of my lumosity games, I'm scoring about as high as I normally do when I go fast, as when I slow down and make 0 or 1 mistakes.  However, I believe that it's allowing my mind to learn to do these processes faster, instead of finding short cuts and accepting more errors.  I'll keep an eye on this for a couple weeks and see where things go.  However, in the past week, I've recovered almost all of the BPI points I've lost over the past two months, where speed/scoring the highest was the main concern for me.

Random Quote #2

Long-range planning does not deal with future decisions, but with the future of present decisions.

- Peter F. Drucker, management consultant

Free Write 1

So yeah... Free write.  I'm adverse to this.  But I'll go with it.  I'm supposed to speak my mind.  So we'll see how this goes.  Eventually, I hope to get better and maybe move more toward storytelling.  Hmmm.... HERE GOES!!!

So, I'm just going to talk about the 2 hour conversastion I had with my buddy David.  I'm going to miss out on a lot of great information, because my methods of keeping information long term isn't the greatest.  But the first thing...

EVERYONE IS TRYING HARD TO FIT IN AS WELL!  We all put up a good front, but that doesn't mean we all aren't struggling.  And struggling hard am I.  I want ot do so much, but I don't get as much as I want accomplished.  But who cares.  Life is a learning process.  I'll fail.  I can expect to fail.  Failing is just a new way of not doing something.

So, why not fail at writing?  Just write.  Find out what doesn't work.  When you finally find out what does work, set that gem as the center piece of your new assignment.  Mold that, shape that, and either throw it away, learning something that didn't work, or reconstruct it to be a new gem.  A new centerpiece for something.

But it doesn't matter.  Just do something.  Spending all of my time playing League or flash games won't expose me to things I may enjoy.  And when I say enjoy, not just enjoying because I want to enjoy them.  I have to get outside of my comfort zone to start enjoying things. 

Also, take care of people.  And be careful around people.  To people.  We all feel just like each other.

I don't have too much now, but I started this.  Incremental habit building.  I'll get there.  Until then, bye!

Writing 1 Revision 1

The man looks around at the desert that stretches around him.  He knows not where he's exact destination is, just that it lies somewhere on the other side of this desolate land.  It's been 4 days since he started this journey, and he's struggled the entire way.  Although he brought enough water to last him the entire trip, he's already drank too much and must ration it now.  Turning back and peering into the distance, he can still barely see the fire and ruins of the origins of this trip.  He thinks on how he caused that destruction, and knows he shouldn't return.  However, it is so close, and he has so far to go.  How easy it would be to turn around and return.  He could rebuild a small house in the ashes.  No one around for him to hurt.  The thought lingers on his mind, pulling him mentally toward the past.  He begins to step forward...

And a thought pierces his destructive command.  There's still hope.  There are people on the other side of this trial.  People who love and care for him.  He can start again.  There is always the chance at a new beginning.  Braving this, and coming out stronger, will make him the man he wants to be.  He dwells on this thought for a few moments.

Then, he gazes at the place he's called home for as long as he can remember.  He reminisces about the laughter and memories, all of the joy he's shared with his friends.  The same ones who are waiting for him, if he can but brave this journey.  Elation replaces despair.  Motivation begins to return to him.  Even with the sun beating down on him, attempting to sap his will, he perseveres.  Smiling, he turns his back to the ashes, and begins to move forward in order to rebuild.

Writing 1

The man looks around at the desert that stretches around him.  He knows not where he's exact destination is, just that it lies somewhere on the other side of this desolate land.  It's been 4 days since he started this journey, and he's struggled the entire way.  Looking back, he can still barely see the fire and ruins of the origins of this trip.  He thinks on how he caused that destruction, and knows he shouldn't return.  However, it is so close, and he has so far to go.  How easy it would be to turn around and return.  He could rebuild a small house in the ashes.  No one around for him to hurt.  The thought lingers on his mind, pulling him at least mentally toward it.  He begins to step forward...

And a thought pierces his destructive command.  There's still hope.  There are people on the other side of this trial.  He can start again.  There is always the chance at a new beginning.  Braving this, and coming out stronger will make him the man he wants to be.  He dwells on this thought for a few moments.

He gazes at the place he's called home for as long as he can remember.  He thinks on all of the good memories he has, and realizes that he can have more memories similar to that.  Smiling, he turns back around and continues his trek through the unknown.

Fitness Challenge!

So, I've been working on getting my life in order.  Even though I've been doing great with my exercise (And by great, I'm consistently going to the gym 2 out of the 3 scheduled times a week xD), I'm still struggling with my diet.  I've passed the point where I get physically sick when I eat vegetables.  However, I still have a preference to not eating them.  So, I've decided to find a source of motivation to get me into the habit of eating lots more of them...

A fitness challenge!  Yesterday was day 1 out of 84 of a fitness challenge on reddit.  I took down my weight, and posted pictures, and now I have a solid starting point.  My approach will be as such: Workout and be active in general, and consume 1500 calories a day (1700 calories on workout days).  A majority of my calories will be from protein, in a hope to still gain some muscle, or at least curb any muscle loss I'll see from the huge deficit.  This means I'll be eating a salad with a side for lunch, and a salad for dinner.

This will be a huge will power test.  As such, I feel it's a great way to start easing back into that part of why I created this blog.  I'll be sure to cover my struggles, what I'm doing to overcome them, and see if I get any comments/support/techniques anyone has for me.

I'm optimistic though.  Although I'm 33% heavier than I spent most of college/high school, I'm also lifting heavier weights than I ever have before and just being more active than I have in a long time.  While my goal will be to lose 20 pounds of fat, my real measure of success will be whether or not I stick with it for the whole 84 days (even if it's at a minimum).  1% is infinitely better than 0%.