Frustration

I'm identifying that I handle frustration in a very ineffective manner.  I find myself getting frustrated, and if I'm being intelligent, I'll remove myself from the task at hand and try working on something else.  I think this would work, as I'm removing myself from the source of frustration. 

However, I'm already in a frustrated place, and it usually affects the task that I've switched to.  I'm finding it normal that I start to get stuck/frustrated with this task (And usually a lot more quickly than I was from the first one).  Then I repeat this cycle, getting a little more frustrated each time, and getting stuck more quickly than the last.  Until I basically blow up and lose focus on everything.

My goal is to try to identify more quickly when I get frustrated, and do what I mentioned yesterday about totally removing myself and taking some deep breathes.  Frustration is what I believe to be the main source of distraction for me.  I hope that removing it will help keep me in a better mood and more productive.

Reminder to myself

So, I've been getting frustrated at work a lot recently.  Normally I just charge through, hoping that I'll make it through the other end.

Hasn't worked.  Time for a change.

As soon as I identify that I'm rushing or that I'm getting frustrated with what I'm working on:  I will make sure I sit down, close my eyes, take 3 deep breathes while clearing my mind, and then focus on what the next thing I need to be working on is. 

Random quote

Quote I like, found today:

"Discipline is the bridge between goals and accomplishments"

- Jim Rohn

Music Poem!

So, in an effort to start keeping up with my life, I'm going to make a note to tell you guys about the fun time I had at Anime Fusion as staff.  But I'll wait on that until I have more time to give it the effort it deserves.

For now, I wrote a poem.  The first I had in quite a long time.  It's still very rough, but I'm going to share it.  It came to me while I was working the lights at the Rave at Anime Fusion.

(Meant to be spoken out loud, as there is a beat, that increases as read)

The beat... Boom, Boom, Boom, driving each bounce
My heart no longer keeps the tempo of my world.
The filters I apply to my daily life are removed.
The music is permeating into my very core.
Spinning, Twirling, stomping, moving... moving.. moving
Each pulse a signal all the way to my muscles, not letting me stand still
Not only does it set my pace, it is the source of my existance.
The speed increases, and so do I
Each beat, making me feel so alive.
The music, crescendos.  My movements, grow wilder.
The end, is coming.  I feel it.  The music, it peaks as I flourish and freeze.

Until the next song

Any comments?  I'd very much like to polish this up and put it in my beginning collection.

Fortune Cookie

I found this hilarious.  Normally, I'm quite adverse to fortune cookies.  I'm not exactly sure what, but I think it has to do with the fact that its random chance.  I think my mind has changed.  Not only did I get this fortune cookie, but I got it at a time that I needed it most.

Here's a note:  I totally dismissed this fortune cookie when I got it the first time.  But on my way to bed last night, I found this fortune cookie.  I didn't even make note of it then.  I just set it on my desk and went to sleep.  I had a great sleep.  I woke up, read it, and I'm going to keep this momentum moving.

"It's time to complete some unfinished business"

Remember...

Just remember...

"Past performance is not an indicator of future results."  It doesn't matter what you have done in the past.  You can always change your future.  Even if you never exercised, or did something you've always been meaning to do, doesn't mean you are bound to keep not doing it.

That's all.

Random Fortune cookie of the Day

One person with a passion is worth 99 people with only an interest. 

Do what you love, love what you do.

Point of Reference

In my thoughts, this concept keeps coming up.  So, as a point of reference, I'm going to start expanding the idea by putting this here.  I'll add as I come up with more things.

That's all.

Keep being awesome. 

Just checking in

I've at least thought it a few times: I need to start using this blog for some of my story ideas/dreaming.  One of my big things I started working on a long time ago, and would like to get back into, is lucid dreaming.  I think it would be a great way to write a story, as I could put myself into the place of my character and experience the situation that way, giving me a more complete picture to better write the story.

But as Kayla says, I just need to write.  So, note to self: WRITE MORE!

Mistakes

Last week, I got a fortune cookie that pointed out something I do to myself a lot, and I know it is more detrimental than anything.  It said something along the lines of "Whenever you make a mistake, don't feel as if you are the mistake".

After thinking about it for a few minutes, I realized that I do this... almost every time.  I know I can learn from mistakes, and I aim to do just that.  However, right after I do something wrong, I'm really harsh on myself. 

I'm going to aim to just identify it as a mistake, make a plan to not let it happen again, and hopefully live with that much less stress!

Update

So, this past month has been quite a testament to perserverence.  While I haven't kept up with my workout everyday, I have been pretty good on my diet, which I feel is the best thing  I could be doing for it.  I probably won't post numbers too often, as its an easy way for me to get discouraged, but as of Sunday, I have some really good news to share.

If I look just at my weight, I would be pretty bummed.  I am up around 2 pounds.  This is after 3-4 weeks of dieting and exercise!  But, luckily for me, I have a body fat % scale.  Compared to when I did this test 3 weeks ago, I have lost 5 pounds of fat, and put on 7 pounds of muscle.  WHOOOO!!!

The message I want everyone to take... You have to stick with the lifestyle changes.  Unless you keep up with it, you aren't going to get the results you want.  I haven't even kicked up my regiment into high gear, so this next month will provide me with some pretty sweet results, I'm hoping.

Until next time, I believe in you!